well, it's february. giving up the delta8 cookies coincided with (or kicked off?) some kind of hormonal incident that caused my period to be like 12 days late. and I also broke out in hives! which I think was caused by hypoallergenic baby oil. so those factors conspired together to drain my brain of dopamine and turn me into a self-destructive gargoyle.
I was so raw and furious and lonely and despondant for a few days, sobbing and lashing out at everything while trying desperately to not do that. it was exhausting. leo was wading through the mental muck too, but he was still able to help me through the worst of it. i love him so much :o and then when I finally got my period, I could practically feel my cogs click back into place. I'm so relived to be functional again.
my playlist is kind of all over the place, with the only real theme being: the songs that got me through this month. most of them are new finds. some are kind of goofy, others more depressing. some I had planned for an abandoned valentine's playlist, some are just kind of there. but they all helped.
I didn't really mean for this to be so personal, but if you're reading this, I hope you are doing well! stay strong! and take care of yourself! <3
below are some pictures I took on the 26th of february on a short walk-about. starting to see the first signs of spring, and I'm really looking forward to it! also check out my sketchbook page to see some of my drawings and paintings this month.
